I went to the Dentist last week. I've got a cavity in my tooth right before my wisdom tooth on the bottom right side. The Dentist will not pull it. He wants me to see an oral surgeon in Marquette. We've got no idea when we can go see the surgeon because we just don't have the money. My tooth is killing me. I can't eat or drink anything cold. I can't chew on the right side of my mouth, it hurts to eat anything harder than mashed potato. I don't know what the hell we're going to do. We're looking at after the first of the year to go. It may be even later we just don't know.

Bonnie and Sonny need a new roof on their house and the youngest son Ben wants everyone to chip in and buy all the material and then put the roof on. Where the hell are we going to come up with the money for that? We can't even pay for my meds every month. We've got a to take loans out every year to pay for them and we're not even breaking even. We've sunk. We can't afford groceries to feed ourselves let alone put a roof on Mom and Dad's house. We need a roof on our house too. Where does he think we're going to get this money? Mom and Dad have 60 acre of land. I think they should sell some of it and sell off Dad's logging equipment that he won't be able to use anymore, but no they don't want to do that. They've got old cars and boats they could be selling but Dad doesn't want to do that either. I'm frustrated and just don't know what to do. We're already in the hole and can't climb out. We can't file for bankruptcy. I just don't know what to do. I'm so stressed out thinking about all this. I can't confront Mom and Dad about this because they are stressed out and underwater too. I hope Ben can talk to them and get somethings settled about all this. Mom listens to Ben. All I can do is keep calling Dad and encouraging his to walk and do his exercises. Dad and I have a deal. I would walk to and from the blue mailbox which is about a block away from the house at least 2 times everyday and he will walk to his mailbox 2 times a day which is about 500 feet and we will go fishing out at his favorite spot on Bond Falls next Spring. I'm doing my part and Mom says he's doing his part so before you know it he'll be strong enough to be able to get out and do things on his own. I can't wait to actually be able to walk out to the falls and fish out there. I've never been able too because of my breathing. Now that I've lost 100 pounds I can walk without loosing my breath and having to stop every 50 feet. I think this is a challenge we both can meet. At least I hope so.

Ok enough of the rant. I'm sorry for it but I needed to get this out or I would make myself sick.