I've started a new project to help me with my Diabetes. I feel like crap and it's all because I stopped taking care of things. I want to be able to remember how I feel so I don't go back to my rut. I'm feeling 4/5 to 5/5. I don't ever want to feel like this again. I've decided to add my email from this morning that I sent to my CDE Winnie.


Hi Winnie.

I haven't forgotten you. I hit another rut this week. I ended up feeling sick and things just screeched to a stop. You know when I feel sick I stop testing. Yeah I know that's dumb. I always feel worse but I haven't been able to get my head out of my ass. My fasting this morning was 356. UGH. I'm working on it. I'm having a hard time thinking but I'm still trying. Ginger has tonight off so when she goes back to work I will send a report back with her so we can work on things together. It's so hard to think. I'm at 4/5 to 5/5 right now. I should write this in a journal so that I can go back and read all this so I can remember how I feel right now. I am going to add this letter to my blog and will start writing everyday. I don't want to forget. I don't want to ever feel this way again.

Jeremy