>I have been sick for the last few day and spend all of yesterday in bed. I did however watch the Prelude to the Dream last night on PPV. There was some great racing and a lot of fun. I just love late model dirt racing. I'm thinking about reinstalling Dirt Track Racing 2 on the computer again and get back to racing my friends online. I've got some really cool friends who race online. It's as close to racing as I'm ever going to get. It's so real and it get the heart pumping when you're in a good race. I just love it. I'm still racing Nascar 09 on the PS2 but I can't figure out how to get that online. I know you can do it I just haven't figured it out. It's 61 and the sun is out. It's really a nice day. I'm thinking about going out and sitting in the sun to read my book. The vitamin D will help me out and the warmth will feel good.

I'm going to start updating the blog everyday or every other day to let Dad know how things are going here. I was an idiot and got pissy when my feelings were hurt. I've really got to get a thicker skin. Dad and Sue really don't have a clue what I've been through over the last 15 or 20 years. They may have known where I was but not what I've gone through. Mental illness sucks and I've said and done things I'm not proud of.