Last night while we were watching the Glenn Beck program, Ginger had a thought and pulled out the Revelation study book and the Bible. As she flipped through the pages it was then that I realized I was doing her and I a great disservice. I have been angry with people thinking that they are hypocrites and I let that anger cloud my judgment when all along I've been the hypocrite. I've been letting my anger keep Ginger and I from having a relationship with Jehovah God. I haven't been a head for Ginger. As a matter of fact I let her take the headship role in the family. In doing so I have put Ginger in a very tough position. She's never wanted to be in charge of the family. She's always wanted me to lead but I guess I just didn't know how. I know that Jesus is my head and Jehovah is Jesus' head, so I should always look a head for answers. I know it's been said that if you keep looking in the rear view mirror you're going to run into something. I now know I've been looking in the rear view mirror for my answers when all along I should have been looking to Jesus. I'm going to start making a real effort to go to meetings and do my bible study, make family time for bible study and be a real head for Ginger. I know with Jehovah's help we can do anything.