Tonja asked to be put on my friends list on Myspace. I'm so nervous about talking to Levi and his Mom. I'm really hoping we can have some kind of dialog. Every time I think about talking to them I get so nervous, I feel like I'm going to throw up. My fibro is really screaming today and I'm having wicked chest pains. Every time I get up and have to do something I have to stop and hold onto something because my chest hurts and I have a hard time breathing. My doc says it's not a heart attack but he's not sure what it is. I really need to find a good doctor. I think we're going to have to start going to Marquette for my primary health care. I'm older than Mom was when she died. I'm scared shitless I'm going to die. I've really been working on my blood sugar and my food intake. I have to admit yesterday I wasn't so good but last night I got back on the wagon. I'm so happy I've been able to cut way down on the Oxycodone. I'm aloud to have 10 Mgs every 6 hours and I've been taking 10 Mg's a day. Some times I have 10 Mg's every 12 hours but mostly I don't have too.