Hi everyone. I'm feeling a bit sluggish today but no real bad. I'm wrestling with the no blood issue that JW's believe in. I really believe in the issue but just not for me. If something happens and I need a transfusion should I have one? I don't want to die here in this society but if I had a transfusion well that goes against what the bible teaches. I know that we all have to face this reality sooner or later but darn it is my faith in Jehovah really that strong? I can't seem to wrap my head around not being with Ginger. I know I'll never even know I'm gone but I keep thinking about Ginger and the my family and me not being there. I'm researching and praying and I've got a pit in my stomach. I think about it and I want to throw up.