Tonight I found a song that I haven't heard in years. As a matter of fact it's the song that influenced me to change my musical taste. Feed Jake by Pirates of the Mississippi. Feed Jake is my all time favorite song. As I sat and listened to it today I changed Jake to Kate and she's my best friend right through it all. I started crying and honestly I have tears running down my cheeks just talking about it. I remember I heard that song on TNN and just stopeed what I was doing and had tears listening to it and after I heard the song When ever I walping Steve build his wrap around porch I would say "We need to listen to country music while we do country work." and then I would trun the radio to WOKQ and I'd wait to hear that song. I never got to hear Feed Jake the whole time we built the porch and for so long I didn't hear that song ever until one Saturday Morning Tonja went out early and I stayed in bed and when she came back she told me to stay upstairs while she did something. A minute or two went by and then she turned up the stereo and as the first bar of Feed Jake came over the speakers I radn downstairs to hear the song I thought I had lost. So Tonja thank you for helping me to find on of my true loves. Feed Jake today still hits me just like it did for so many years ago. I know I made your life crap for a long time. I made alot of peoples lives a living hell. I think back to where I was mentally. I was crazy. Everything was always me me me. Well I've had what 12-15 years Heck I'm sorry to say I don't know how old Levi is. I can't remember my sons birthday. I know it's in the end of June 26,27,28? Darn I wish I knew. When I lost my mind I lost most of everything else to. I miss things so much as to the way things were. I know I can't never have those days back but they will always live in my memory. I loved cutting wood with steve whiel he was trying topull logs out of a pile with his little chevy s10 and a steel cable. well the cable worked ok for a fewminute but then after a fr monminutes the cable finally broke and steve was watching out the rear window watched the cable snap and come back through the rear window and darn nearly taken Steve head off. Man that was pretty sceary but luckilly we both servived and get more food . That why I say I always love to go out and work with Steve to get wood or what ever it was fun fot me.

I always lovedand add maccaroni and ptoattoes and have the good stuff.
to help cook food for us. Marie would be fixing bbqchick and I'd be skinning potatoes and onoins getting them ready for a salad

I also remember something else. This may sound weird but the way Steves hous smelled was wonderful. I let TJ wear one of my jean jackets for a while and found it on the could. Rhe coat had sit up in TJ's room for a couple months so it got this smell. So one dady the coat is on th arm of the coach and I decided I wanted to wear it and when I put it on The jacket smelled just like Steves houe. I wish I could have taken that smell and put it in a bottle so that I could always have the smell with me. I guess this is because I did spend a ton of time with that family that supper I would like to say that the time I get to spend with the Mogaveros was the absolutely the best time I have ever had in my life