I am bored out of my mind today. I've been listening to 93.3 the wolf from back home a lot lately. I used to listen them when they were 102.3 but I think 93.3 is better. It's nice to be able to listen to commertials from home. Sounds kinda silly but I miss home so much. I miss the mountains and the ocean. It's very flat here. Not like driving through New York but it's flat. We have the Porqupine Mountains that are nice but it's not like the White Mountains. I have the habit of just looking for pic of home on different websites. I day a year or so ago I found a pic of Vinnies Pizza in Concord and I started crying from homesickness. Don't get me wrong I love it here and don't ever plan on going back home because we just can't afford it. Heck we can't even afford to go to Wal Mart anymore. If we can't get something at home we just don't need it. That's the way Gin and I have lived since we moved here. It's not a bad way to live and we do save alot of money but never seem to have enough. I'm really looking forware to after I have my surgery. I'll be able to go back to work. There aren't many jobs around here but I know I have a job with the local ambulance service when I'm ready. They keep getting in touch with me to see how things are going. There is such a need for EMS personel here in the U.P. I'm going to need to go back to school to recertify because I've been away for so long and I'll have to be Michigan certified. The good thing is the Service will pay for my schooling so it won't have to come out of our pockets. I'm figuring by next Christmas I'll be back to work. My depression is going pretty well. The meds are helping and I havn't had a suicide attempt in 2 years. The voices are not so bad now either. Dr. Mendelbaum thinks the voices come from the depression and since that isn't so bad they havn't been so bad.

I'm tumbleing some rocks in our tumbler so we can amybe sell them, but today listening to the thing go around is driving me crazy. Ihave to shut it off for now and let it run tonight while we sleep. Ginger is working until 7. She's going to bring home a cheap frozen pizza for supper. I like the Jacks frozen pizzas. They are not like a real pie but they are good. Come to think of it I havn't had a real pie since we moved here. I would love to have a NY style pizza. We can't get those around here. Infact we don't have a pizza place around here. All we have are like the premade Cumby's pizzas that you micowave. They are called Hot Stuff Pizza. Oh man they suck. We don't even have a doenut shop around here either. We can get doughnuts at Pats though but they are awful. My thoughts are everywhere again or should I say still. Hmmmm I'm going to go watch tv.