A Wonderful Gift

Today Ginger and I received the greatest gift we have ever gotten. Dad and Sue (my folks) sent us a book full of my mothers and my sisters’ recipes. I wanted to cry when I opened the box and saw what is was. I thought that I would never see them again. My mother and Jenn were wonderful cooks and when Jenn passed away last January I asked Dad and Sue to collect Jenn’s recipes and send them to us so that Ginger could make a cookbook in her memory. I’m am so happy that they sent them to us.

I wish Dad and I could have a relationship. He’s very closed minded about depression because of what the shrinks did for mom which was nothing at all, but things have changed so much since then. There are new and better medications out, and better understanding of depression. I miss Dad and Sue so much. I miss my family. There has been so many times when I just needed to talk to Dad and get his advice on something. My father is a good man and I have learned so much from him, but the most important thing I learned was how to love. I saw how he loved mom and I hope that I love Ginger half as much. I have said and done some very terrible things to Dad and Sue over the years that I know I’ll never be able to get back into the family. I have always been very defensive when Dad would tell me I should just suck it up or something to that effect. I just wish I could just stop being depressed and start being healthy. I’m having very serious complications with diabetes and fibromyalgia.